Here’s a Quick Update:
Our House –
We live in a small house…that means on laundry day the whole living room is consumed (especially if it is raining out), after 1 meal, the entire kitchen is dirty, and with one curtain I can section off half of the house (which is great to heat it).
We have found a church that we love and are starting to get involved in. We attended the community group (aka small group) last night. It was a great time and very encouraging for us. It has been a long time since I have been in a place where I felt feed and not just needed. We had a great discussion time and prayer time and I am very excited to get to know everyone in the group better.
Today, Jeff signed up for classes next quarter. And the race has begun to the end of this quarter! 3 weeks left and too many papers! He has been doing a great job on all of his assignments and no doubt he will continue.
As for the job situation, I have a steady babysitting job for Fridays with two precious girls. I also babysit for a family with a 2 yr old trilingual boy. He is amazing and confusing at the same time. I have been missing “my kids” back in Georgia and I am so excited to finally have new families to get to know. I am still looking to fill the rest of the week in, but people are still the word out there for me.
Monday night at community group, we were having a time of prayer for each other, and I asked that they would pray for me as I look for jobs and as we an organization to go with. As they were praying for me, I had a revelation. ( God is probably saying Finally).
I long for stability.
I long for stability in a job. I would love to have the everyday, same hours, and do the same thing every day job. Jeff says I would get bored and this is why I never have a job like this, but truly I have never had a job like this. I have had regular nanny jobs, but honestly, when you are watching kids…it is never the same or unexciting! For the past four years I have worked 3-5 jobs at the same time. However, I know that God has provided every job I have ever had, and I can specifically tell you how with each one. I believe he has not allowed me to have that stability to so that I continue to learn to trust him and that I can say without a doubt that there is no possible way a schedule like that would work if I was the one trying to hold it all together.
I long for stability in where we live. I think I would be content living in Georgia, near family, and working with the community that I know. Yet, God has not called us to that and has decide to move us around. I know California is only the preparing ground for moving farther away from comfortable.
I long for stability in a missions organization. I long to be able to stay with an organization, grow with them as a family, and truly be a family of Christ. I want to be able to explain to our supporters why this organization is the best for us and have stability for them. I am coming to realize that the “right” organization may be there but may not be my first choice, or have everything we wanted. Yet, it is “right” because He authors it to be.
In reality, my life is not unstable, but my feeling of “lack of stability” is only a lack of me being able to do it myself. My stability must now, and should always, come from God. So no matter how unstable my life may look to me, I am now declaring my life having stability in God, and that must be and will be enough for me.